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like can we just have 5 instead of 9,
do you have to drag your boyfriends everywhere ???????? 

SEMAK
WORK SEMAK
THE EX SEMAK
RELATIONSHIP CLOSURE SEMAK
STRESS LEVEL 100000


Baca Quran pun selalu menangis
i hate myself now


Too many bullshit happenned and happening
you guys remain silent

text yang reply only Olalla

Fine, im fine, u girls are busy

i shall remain silent

Primadonna Razorblade

2012 : Letter 3

MISS YOU GIRLS A LOT..

Primadonna Razorblade,
The right person to comment on this is Rian Kassidy. With all the law term, x faham. Sorry dear. But i believe if you hate your job,  u SHOULD quit.

For me, now I want to start looking for new job. The thing is I can't see any progression with my current job. Tak ada opportunity utk convert to permanent and naik pangkat in the same department. This what happen when ur in a department that based on sales. I miss dealing with numbers. I miss accounting. I miss finance. But i have leave them for so long... (agak dramatic skit, maaf).

Ohoi, bila nak jumpa (mcm Jake and the Neverland Pirate ckp, ok korang mungkin x fhm, mungkin Roosa Rooness akan fhm).

Ketamsenget,
where are you? Hope you doing fine.

Oh rindu nya.

With love,
Olalla T Sanz 

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Let me tell you one thing.

I have one big regret. I shouldn’t accept the offer. I knew what I love, my passion and interest but why did I accept the offer? Why did I retain myself in the firm? Why????

Salah satu regret paling besar dalam hidup kita, sebenarnya.

Pasal kita remain sini la kita lagi serabut sekarang ni.

Ok, let be just get it straight. I hate my job. Like really hate. I wake up every morning thinking of excuse of not coming to work. I look at the clock every time, hoping that the clock will struck 5.30pm so that I can pack my bag and leave the office.

I even hate to have lunch here.

I look forward to weekends, more than any other normal person. Like today is Wednesday, I already am excited for weekends, SERIOUSLY.

So I talked to my mum today. Actually I talked to them parents since a month ago rasanya, before puasa and all that. Dad said “give it a try”. Mak said “do what you love, (somewhere in between la, actually).

So yeah, talked to my mum and she sounded a bit concerned. I talked while ironing my tudung to work, and I realized that I forced myself not to cry. I don’t know why, but yeah, rasa macam nak menangis. My mum said “gaji macam mana?”.

Waaa, I really need you girls badly. I seriously do. I mean, I know I hate my job but I want to make my parents happy. I hate my job to the point that I feel like tendering; a 24hours notice all the time and pay RM7,000 to the firm. Yeah, that bad.

But the thing is, I love money. The only thing I splurge is food. I haven’t go out shopping for shirt, I’ve been wearing Baju Kurung all the way since July, seluar jarang gila dah pakai, malas, tak ada mood.

How can I get good salary nowadays?

Or is it passion will drive you to your journey?

Its obvious. Kalau tak ada mood, I will not dress up. I look like a dork. Seriously like a dork. I lost a lot of weight. I think I am in a depressed stage.

I want to get away from my current job. The thing is, I have lack of confidence. I did litigation all the way throughout my chambering but in my last 1 month plus, I did corporate. I didn’t do convey, at all. AT ALL. So when they offered me to be under my current boss, I was told that “she’s more on documentation.” Documentation my arse, just say la its convey.

Freaking convey.  I hate convey all my life. I cant live in the office all the time, my brain doesn’t work that way. I hate it. I really hate it all my heart.

So sekarang I am a 4 months full fledge lawyer with convey and corporate experience. I want to move out, tapi ada ke orang yang nak?

I love the thrill, I love the reading, I love analyzing the facts and I love reading.

So why am I here?

And reading “Quarter Life Crisis” is not helping me at all. Nothing at all.

GAH I HATE MY JOB.

Primadonna Razorblade

11

I hope Rian is OK.

Primadonna Razorblade

Rian Kassidy: Note 12

Assalamualaikum everyone,

I, for the love of God, cannot remember my Rian Kassidy username and passoword. So shall be using our main email then lol.

Anyways, this will be short. Super busy today ><

Pergi Johor in October/November saya setuju! Can we masuk Singapore sekali?? ^^ /cuteface/

I miss everyone!!

Love,

Rian Kassidy

ps. storytellingcompetition should be updated. SOOO MUCH have changed. lol.

2012 : Letter 2

Dear besties,

Mane ketamsenget? kenapa dia mcm menghilangkan diri ><"

Korang Ahad ni dtg okay. Catch up session!!

Oh Primadonna, jgn risau. Saya juga mcm anda Wlpun agak stress sikit sbb Raya ni, semua aunty2 dan uncle2 tanya "Bila lagi?" . Lps tu my mom yg jwb kan "Calon pun x de lagi"  ><"

Korang, October/November jom pg Johor. Pleasssseeee. Hello Kitty town. Pleasssseee.

oh rinduuu serindu rindunya. #eh

With love,
Olalla T Sanz

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this is what Ketamsenget replied to my text.

"...bukan heartless, primadonna just saving your heart for someone who really deserves it.. ie ur future husband...hehe kita rsa awk xde crush sbb awk xjmpa lg kot yg betul2 boleh bt awk rsa nervous smua kn..hehe"

Betul, dah lama sangat sangat sangat tak jumpa orang yang buat kita nervous.

Primadonna Razorblade





jap, ada. my boss. HAAHAHAHAH.


im not having lunch today, but have to type this out. rindu.

9

omg i miss u girls.

work macam gila.

roosa rooness, rindu awak sangat sangat.

rindu tiap satu satu.

JOM LA RAYA. ada banyak benda nak cerita.

Ketam senget haritu ada bagi kita jwapan yang tepat pasal soalan kita. and yes, kita dah membesar. Bila baca blog ni, kita dapat sedar kita ada satu pattern: cepat bosan.

Dengan blog ni, kita nampak bezanya kita dulu dan sekarang.

OH HOW I MISS U GIRLS AND THE BLOG, TOO.

Primadonna Razorblade

2012 : Letter 1

Dear besties,
Let's start again! Update update & update here.
Yeaa yeaaa dh ingat password =D
Rindu korang.
Mark your calender this 9th Sept 2012. Details will sms later.

Roger and out.

With love,
Olalla T Sanz