roosa roonceet booncheet - hello :)

perempuan2 yg sentiasa berada di hatiku,
adoi. gilew busoock.

kite dah baca semua post korang, hehe, well kite happy membacanya tapi malas nye nak type.

i miss u guys so much, always n forever sampai bawak mimpi.

hope u girls doing great and good luck.

kite ni di tahap yg malas, mengah, semput dan sebagainya. sangat tak bertenaga dan bermaya.

i love u kitties. kitties lagi.

p/s : abang remy ishak dashing.


<3, roosa rooness

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Hai korang. Dah lama tak tulis kat sini.

Kita busy sangat gila tembikai. (HEH??, TEMBIKAI, OK MALAS NAK DELETE).

1. Kita dah bosan dengan dia dah.. Tahap langit ke 5 daripada 7.

2. Kita dah bosan.

3. Kalau korang dapat offer kerja/praktikal dengan orang yg buat kes pasal ie: Lina Joy, Sisters In Islam, korang pergi tak? Mak kta macam tak happy, tapi im here to learn.. Firm tu awal-awal dah cakap, ppl's perception towards the firm is tht 'anti Islam'. Tapi, FIRM TU DEKAT TTDI!!

4. Kita dah bosan dengan dia. Tapi sayang masih ada di hati.

5. Tapi Mr Gentleman muncul di saat begini. Kami dah text non stop dari 25th March lepas, samapi sekarang, every single day. He's nice, tapi dia tak pasang lagu dalam kereta... macam ...tetttttttttttttttttttt gila tembikai, kan?


6. Kita confused. Mak kita tak suka dia. Mak kita cakap, 'Kawan je', but bila pasal Mr Gentleman, mak kita yang OVER excited.

7. Kita rasa nak break, tanak bagi hope.

8. Tapi kita rasa kejam....

9. Dia nak datang UUM this 23rd, tak silap, TAPI kita excited ciput je...not sooo looking foward to it.

10. Kesimpulannya, kita serabut. Tapi this matter kita tak pandang berat sangat, kita CHILL, pasal STUDY DULU.

Ok, thats it. Nanti kalau ada free time, kita post lagi secara detail.


p/s; Mr Gentleman tak tak langsung pasal dia, pasal Mr G tak pernah tanya. TAPI, dia tahu pasal MrG yg kita pergi wedding,..but dia tak pernah tanya lagi dah lepas tu...kita malas nak ckp kt dia, pasal dia tak tanya..


OK, LOVE U ALL, PUBLIC AFFAIR FOR LIFE!!!

Primadonna Razorblade

sayangsss!~

sayangs!!
well it's been a while since my last post here..and here goes...

im super super busy with my final year project..im swarmp with workloads yg xsudah2...i cant find the time to study for my finals....sgt stress..but saya kene relax2 saja..nnt bole jd gila...xpe2 there's 4 days left for my presentation, so WISH me luck!!!! im hoping for miracles here...suda 2 hari saya tdo 2 jam sahaja...haih!

to olala,
it's good to hear that u finally moved on from choco...ad byk lg lelaki yg baik u just have to find him...i thank my luck stars coz i've finally found the guy who understands me and treats me with respect....eventho its a few years too late.. :) but still...Alhamdulillah. and *hint hint* bdk klas kte ad yg baik2 dan single lg...die pn minat liverpool jgk...dia la yang byk tlg kte dlm most of my project...hehehe if u want, i can.............................(fill in the blank sendiri) ;D :D

to ryan kassidy,
babe, who's zaza? ok im no expert in this matter but sometimes there are things that is much easier and simpler to talk to a girl friend rather the girlfriend..can u catch my drift? yes he should talk to u about everything and anything but sometimes there are things yg he could not talk or say to u....eventho he prefers to talk to somebody else does not mean that he's not interested in you anymore...yes u do have the right to be bothered but u need to give him time...let him have his way first..sooner or later he will confide with u again...just give him and yourself time...maybe korg stress sgt kot....but again if this happens to me, im too will be bothered...so u're not being petty or selfish ryan, u're just being a girlfriend.

and for the future, im worried too...nk smbg master ke or kerja....confuse!!!! arggghhhh....

to primadona,
are u ok?? i read ur other blog, it seems like u're not ok...dun wori...tggl brpe minggu je lagi for this hell hole to be over....if u need to talk to someone we are always there for u...

to roosa,
i hope u and ur family and the baby in the belly are fine....

i miss u guys sooooo much!!!!




lots of love;
ketamsenget :)

Dear kwn baik 18

Besties!

Wah lama nya x conteng2. hehe. oh i miss u guys so much! nak peluk2.

To Rian Kassidy, Primadona & Ketamsenget, saya tau anda semua tgh stress knowing that last sem korang. i've been in that situation before. yes mmg stress last sem. korang hang on there k. try to be relax, jgn stress sgt nnt naik eczema ( eyh tu saya bkn anda semua =P).

To clear things out, SAYA TIADA SCANDAL baru. ahahaha. my life skrg sibuk dgn keje. surprisingly surrounded by guys in the office, tp x de scandal baru. ahahaha. but my work so far ok, x de stress2. saya sebenarnya reject 1 offer from Affin Bank. Gila kan saya tolak bank. But well, i told Ketamsenget before, i must think about my health. Ade eczema ni susah skit kalau keje yg stress2. maybe after this i will work for banks, i dont know. Mcm gila kan. Major in finance and banking tp x nak keje bank. Sbb saya sgt takut, saya x blh control myself. Kalau stress2 sgt, eczema saya SGT TERUK. Ok lupa kan psl tu.

I think I finally starting to get over Choco. yeah "tepuk2 pengangkap". haha. Im happy being single right now. Knowing Im the only one here who are not single (konon ayat pasrah), haha. but Im happy, x kesah psl bf pun lagi. mungkin x jumpa lagi. Insyallah my time will come kan korang =)

Rian Kassidy, about Ezra. Sometimes the bf always have someone else (girl) who they comfortable to talk with their problems. Sbb mcm case ......(ok x ingat nickname dia). Jab nk pegi check.oh Mr E. ok mcm dgn Mr E kan, dia selalu bila stress or tension will turn to me, cerita n all. I just dont know why, maybe he more comfortable talking to me about his problems. Ms Rian Kassidy, your not selfish. maybe as a gf, u should be the place he talks about his problem. Saya pun x tau mcm mana. But after I hear your story, now I understand why Mr E's gf jealous of me ><" Btw, sapa Zaza?

Primadona, apa cerita? saya rindu anda dtg ttdi, ambik saya n pergi mkn tutti frutti. ok padahal br sekali je. ahahaha.

Ketamsenget, RINDUUU. sgt x fair Rian Kassidy dah jumpa bf anda. saya sgt jealous =P

Ms Roosa, how life? Baby dlm perut tgh buat ape? tetiba pulak. bila lagi nk black out pastu jerit2 pgl each other pastu Melodi dtg buat liputan pastu kte jadi femes pastu msk tv pastu jd lg famous dr pelakon asmara tu? ahahahaha. ok x betul dah.

P/S : tetiba kan saya rasa saya mula appreciate Nabil . Yesszzza ade nickname baru.ahaha. Lps dgr blk a few time the song yg dia buat for me, i rase cm...x pernah laki buat mcm ni kat i. tp i just really confuse about this guy. Does he likes me or not? Confuse..

With Love,

Olalla T Sanz ( nak tukar nama blh x? ><" Sbb mr T dah jd the blues =(

Rian Kassidy: Letter 12

Dear Sayangs;

It's nearing the end of the semester of my final year now. It's actually the last week of my final semester. I'm kinda lost right now to be honest. What to do... where to go? I still can't decide. So I guess I'm gonna try interviewing for anything and everything? Haha. The Father's interfering again. As usual. I really could strangle him if he were not my Father -_-"

By the way, finals are coming up in about a week and there are still classes and tests and tonnes of assignments. I'm a bit burnt out. Okay, fine. A lot burnt out. I don't know if I'd be able to rest well and be re-energised enough to face the finals. Cane dengan cita-cita nak naikkan CGPA kalau cani??

***

Talking about being in the final semester... a firm-mate of mine sent a cute text message last night. Saying he'd miss me and another firm-mate when it's over. And I got melancholic all of a sudden. School's finishing. Will things change? Will the friendship we built suffer?

One thing fo'sho: no more allowances!! Eep!!

***

Regarding the boyfriend.. well, Ezra and I... it sometimes... I don't know how else to explain how I feel right now except that it feels like this <-- linksilatekan!!. It's tiring walking in a landmine. It gets so hard sometimes that I get so down. It feels like I'm losing him. Losing the essence of what it was. He used to smile brightly just by the sight of me... he used to say, "You make my problems go away." But now... it seems like I've lost it. I don't have that anymore. If he's upset and stressed out... I seem to stress him out even more whenever he sees me. I feel like another person has taken my place when he prefers to talk to this new friend of his, Zaza.

Do I sound bitter for thinking that? Do I sound petty? Selfish? These thought run through my mind whenever I think I'm losing him just because he prefers to talk to someone else. Because I think... who am I to feel like that? But then again, I also thought it's because I am who I am that I have the right to feel really, really bothered. Because I am his girlfriend. And I was that person to him. I was. It's not like I never was and he finally found someone he could talk to. No. I.Was.That.Person.

Agh. Shucks. I don't know. Kusut sial.

***

Right. Enough about me. How are you guys? Primadona are you okay? Read your alternate story... and it sounded like something's wrong. Are you okay? You sent me a text asking for an opinion... and to come here... but I don't see any letters from you. Are you okay? I'm kinda worried here ><

Roosa, Olalla T. Sanz and KetamSenget.. I hope you guys are all fine and dandy =))

Love,

Rian Kassidy

there's something inside me

that pulls beneath the surface

consuming, confusing

this lack of self-control

I fear is never-ending

Rian Kassidy: Letter 11

Sayangs,

Right now, I feel like I'm in a humongous, pitch-black hole. One I cannot come out from. I don't know why I'm suddenly like this, and I don't know how to let this all go.

I've been listening to Evanescence, The Used and the likes. Which is never good 'cos they're stuff I listen to when I'm down.

When I'm really, really down.

Right now, I feel like I've exhausted all my energy and will-power in trying to smile and just be happy. It's like nothing's going my way. I'm not angry. I'm just... tired. I'm tired of classes. I'm tired of dealing with Ezra. I'm tired of wondering whether we're okay. I'm tired of thinking about the future. I'm tired of trying to please people.

I'm just... tired.

I wanna let everything go and just chill. Have a walk alone in the park at night... Cycle around... Watch stupid shows... Read stupid books... and just goof around with stupid people (i.e. y'all. hehh.)

I guess... I just wanna get out of here.

Please let May 5th pass by quickly. 'Cos I don't think I can go on any longer than that ><

Love,

Rian Kassidy

P/s: I don't know if you'd be reading this or not but I take comfort in assuming you do *smiles* I love yous =)